Perhaps...

Perhaps I should take off my happy-go-lucky mask and be the real me?

Perhaps I should be apathetic to those who are unwilling to learn and not be bothered by them?

Perhaps I should not care other people's feelings and thoughts and be blunt and merciless when speaking to those who do not deserve better treatment?

Perhaps I should keep all matters to myself and not be made known tho the party involved, or even to anybody in the first place?

Or even perhaps I shouldn't come into NTU and rather go take a poly diploma and be working now?

The point being: there are so many choices available to take. But sometimes, the choice taken is not the one that you really want. For example, being nice and repeating the same thing over and over again versus telling the person off in the face and condemn him there and then. It is easier to be a bastard that everyone hates than to be a nice guy where everybody is happy but not yourself (remember the Life stages: You're OK, I'm not OK?). I really wish for the world to explode the next minute so that everything can start anew... Can anyone grant me that wish? Yeah right.. dream on.