I feel so stupid...

Why is it that other people are able to understand a particular subject so well even though they have no basics in that? Why is it that with the same period of time, they can fully understand and implement their knowledge whereas for me I can understand nothing at all? Is it that I do not put in enough effort to understand or just completely giving up hope in myself that I cannot make it?

Going off on a tangent, why is it that some people know what to say at the right time and be able to be together with the person they wish? Why is it that I seem to fail so miserably... always hearing the excuse "You're able to find a better one than me...".

Back to the topic, now I am seriously wondering whether I AM really cut to be a computer programmer. It's too tiring.... having so many things to understand and so many lab reports to finish. Gradually, I can no longer see my ultimate aim in coming into the University...