Haiz...

Almost all of my study group friends face problems with their emotional life... haha same here. But it's just that compared to them, they seem to fare better than me. At least they do not do anything to harm themselves bodily. Yet me... the more I want to say that I want to quit, the worse the feelings gets. I know that I've seen the clear skies before me, but still... I don't seem to have the courage to face up to reality.

Yes, the feeling's gone now, I don't experience any of those mood swings that I've had in the past. Right now I'm emotionally barren. Just wanna concentrate on studies and nothing else. But like just now, when I was doing my 204 tutorial, I saw her heading towards me with Edmund. But I acted as if I didn't see her. Just concentrating on studies. And for them, they took a turn to the CE GO. It's just so hard to face up to her and pretend that everything's fine and done with.

Well, maybe I should keep poisoning myself till I can really get over what I should not have felt. Sorry Simin, Adlina, but it's just that your friend here just do not have the courage. I'm just a coward, unlike the confident me that I usually portray in front of you guys.