He and she

Ok.. read this only if there is too much time to waste... hmmm... though I don't think anyone would really read this...

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He and she were total strangers
Until the day where Fate drew them together

They became friends
As they are further bounded by a common similarity

He knew more personal stuff about her
She too, knew about almost everything about him

He felt so angry and sad
When he knew th that she was cheated badly

He, who was outspoken for most of the time
Was at a loss for words

Perhaps it was during that time
Where things start to tingle

He found that he didn't really want to be only friends with her
He desired to take a step further

He started to be more caring towards her
And at times made unabashed remarks about them

He tried to know about the type of guys that she like
But was crestfallen when he heard her answer

He was sure that he liked her
But he would doubt himself, about his feelings at times

He knew that chances of success is near hopeless
Yet the irrational part of him wanted to simply spill the beans

However he didn't know how she feels
Especially after when so many things happened

He would think to himself,
Is he the right person for her?

Is he capable of taking care of another person whom he holds dear?
Is he prepared to face the near-assured rejection?

It might be mere infatuation
It might be real feelings

Perhaps it's destined
That he is to fail terribly in the field of relationships

But right now all he hopes
Is that she would be safe and unharmed

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I guess it's a little too boring or crappy as usual, this's my little way of venting out my stress from schoolwork. And of course, to provide a little memory of what I once had... it will be interesting when I read back this post 6 months down the road...

Cool

So much about wanting to catch the show 'Fearless' at the cinemas. In the end, I watched it at my friend's hall. Jet Li's way too cool. The way he wields the weapons left me in awe. Big time. Tempts me to get back for training. Though I'm turned off big time whenever I think about people there. I guess it's true. There's no such thing as the 'best martial arts'. It's the matter of how good the person is practicing it. Oh well. Enough of twunging. Gotta get back to my books.


Praying for speedy recovery
It ain't a good time to get distracted

Bad memories

Last night wasn't my night. Memories of what happened in the past came back to haunt me. I guess these memories are stuff that I didn't exhibit in my daily life. I can't rightly say that the way I carry myself ain't exactly a facade, but it's just more. How I manage to screw myself so badly, failing in something that I was so confident of. That instant flash, the pain that I experienced in my Wushu trip. How I had to sit there, being unable to move while people are like crowding around me and asking am I all right. When I had one fist on the floor and trembling very badly. That pain that I experienced again, when I underwent my first physio.

True, like what I told her before, bad memories serves as a reference only. Heh. Easier said than done. I guess last semester was screwed up for me, because of my own mindset. Loss of confidence and having nobody there when I needed moral support. It doesn't help when things get even more sticky. I can't really say that I've regain ALL my confidence that I had in the past, but I'm trying my best to do so. No point in self-wallowing. I have to be strong, no matter what happens. "Stand tall and shake the heavens". I'ld have to believe in these words after all. In the meantime, let me pen down some stuff that I made up last night, for 'her', whoever the 'her' may be. Yeah, I'm that pathetic. >_>



Nothing is more lovely in the world
Than the look that you have in your eyes

Nothing is sweeter in the world
Than the way you call out my name

If I have to pay a price to be with you
Then I am willing to give up my heart and soul

If I have to decide how long this love will last
Then I would want the time to be eternity

Updates

It's been a long time since I've updated this blog, so here goes..

1. I have finally gotten reborn!!! that is, on Conqueronline. Hee. Took me really some time before I could use another special skill. And since my target's met, it's time to concentrate on schoolwork now.

2. I got to know another online friend. Also from Conqueronline. Apparently she's living in CCK but studying in NYP as a nurse.

It seems that my online friend is a bit on the screw-loose side, cos' on msn she asked me whether I'm single or attached. When she knew that I'm still single, her next question was asking me whether I want her to intro girls to be. 0_* Isn't that a tad bit too fast, I mean I don't even know her real life, and there she is wanting to introduce girls to be. Geez... that's wierd.

Lately I have a question posed to me by one of my close friends: do I have a girl that I fancy? I guess I kinda do, but it's more on a one-way street. I think I understand her, but I want to know more about her. She's familar, yet sometimes I feel so strangely unfamilar. So much about all these, a part of me knows that it's impossible. I could still remember the words she used. However, if I cash in on hopes that people change, then is it still an impossible dream? God knows. Argh. I think I go do my video lectures on 208 now. And I think I'm into MV-whoring now. Which is very bad.. hee

Comp down...

Something's wrong with my dearie. Seems that the screen can't light up. That's wierd, given that I was still listening to my mp3 on the bus just now. Might as well. I need to service my laptop and this is the high time. Only that I didn't back up important applications. Darn. I can forsee a week without laptop, but on the other hand, I could concentrate on my schoolwork. No more distractions. hur hur. What a Ah-Q attitude.


My first time
Experiencing life
Without my dearie beside me
*sob*

Time passes

Unknowingly, my blog is 1 year old now. I could still remember what factor resulted me in getting a blog. Overtime, however, things change and I guess if I were to suffer from memory loss, I could look back at this blog to understand about my life. How screwed up it is, my PR and the likes.


As time passes
People change
Only thing is
Is it for the better
Or for the worse

Tired but happy

Had a freaking long day today. Left school at 11.30am and took me like... 1 hour and 10 minutes to reach there? and then took me ages to reach. Still the same thing, the pass is just as screwed up, having conflicting numbering. Yet it's a nightmare to me. Having to wear that frog uniform for less than 5 minutes. Lucky though, I wasn't fined 50 bucks, which is good news. Though later in the evening I got some pressies so.. I guess it's a balance. hur hur. But oh well. glad that things went smoothly. Though one ass hole tempted me to push the envelope when I was writing the card. Come on, I know where I stand. It's easy for me to change the whole idea with only a few words, but thing is, I don't think I'm really that good. I mean, there's no point in trying for the impossible IMHO. Although I told Bern that in no matter what situations, do your best. I don't wanna be another fucking bastard that she would hate me right to the core. And that we share similarities. If you know what I mean. Tempting it might be for me to push the envelope, but I can say this: Unless I'm certainly sure. If not. I'll be happy with the current situation.


Video lecture video lecture
Hope that I brought her a smile
I seriously do

Something's wrong

I can't really point out the problem. Or maybe I can but unwilling. Or it's just too ridiculous. Whatever. Maybe it's just a poor facade in the first place. I mean, how often do I have to come to terms that my priority in school is to study and socialise but NOT so much via online games or simply trying to push the envelope? I would really marvel at myself how successfully I will screw myself, not in THAT context. It's tiring that I would have to keep reminding myself to stay on track and not to deviate from the correct path, though sometimes the temptation for myself to deviate and to try to obtain the impossible is simply too great. I expected uni life to be 'exciting' in all aspects, but certainly I didn't want it that way. I think I've better get my life straight before trying to set anymore goals.


Looking back at that particular document
Something in me starts to tingle
But deep down in my soul, I know that
It's impossible

爱是你眼里的一首情歌

总是不经意地想起
你喜欢哼的那首歌曲
一样温柔的音
依旧牵动我的心
我曾寻寻觅觅
想在文字里寻找爱情
才发现最美的诗句
原来都在你眸里

(Chorus)
爱是你眼里的一首情歌
轻洋着飘逸旋律
让我不知不觉地陶醉在
你缠绕的深情
爱是你眼里的一首情歌
轻拨动我的心弦
让我不由自主地深爱着你

总是不经意地想起
你喜欢哼的那首歌曲
一样温柔的音
依旧牵动我的心

我曾寻寻觅觅
想在文字里寻找爱情
才发现最美的诗句
原来都在你眸里

(Chorus)*2

Clear

I guess things are much more clearer than before. I could see and get to know a person more thoroughly without communicating directly with the person. Rather, just by small little things that the other party does. I thought that the situation's isn't that bad, but I'm dead wrong. It's worse than I previously guessed. Oh well. It's hard to please everyone. So long as I can face myself, then I don't think I'll suffer from bad dreams. Though I used to wake up in the middle of the night feeling guilty and forlorn. Cos it was my mistake. But at least I get to see the true faces. What was black now became white, and what once was white changed into black.


Hope that things will go on as planned.
It may seem meaningless, but to me
It means a lot.