Amazed... by myself
I am simply amazed on how things can change with a few words, that sometimes come out when I feel that my mask falls out with me. So much for being myself and being less crappy as my new year resolution. Apparently these just blow past me like a breeze, having so many yet failing to abide none of them. So now apparently it seems that I mus t continue to be less of myself so as to be able to maintain a healthy friendship while I slowly poison myself psychologically into another personality? So must I be schizophrenic, having split personalities to my surrounding people and be a bastard when I stare, in the mirror, the creature that is sneering at me also?
I do not wish to say anything further. If what I say hurts people, then I rather be a loner who always keep to himself and not expose myself any opportunities to broaden my social circle, and eventually be those whom are branded as 'outcasts'? And allow myself to waste my life away just because whatever I say will hurt people? It really seems to be the time where I shall keep to my resolutions and if they find me appalling, then, for God's sake, leave me. It doesn't matter whether it is done explicitly or implicitly. I don't give a f***ing care about it.
posted by Chuanyan at
1:35:00 AM
1 Comments:
hmm, seem like u're havin a bit of rough time with pple ard u. sometimes it's good to think 4 pple first b4 sayin everythin out. i'm not tellin u to wear a mask and face pple. u can be Urself too, by sayin things in a nice manner. and this is called P.R. pple may not want to hear the direct ugly truth which hurts, but u as a friend doesnt want to see ur friends bangin into walls rite? so u shld provide them with fair advice and suggestions. discuss and talk calmly. in any case if they're too heated to hear, jus keep quiet. cos the onli thing u can do is to stay by their side and help them when they need u.
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