Sudden wave

As I was poisoning myself just now(yeah sorry peeps), all of a sudden I felt a sadness hitting me... I got myself so involved in CEC and schoolwork, yet I feel so emotionally void... I know this is wrong, I have my friends and family, but considering BGRs... I simply feel like a sucker... my roomie kinda 'complained' to me that he has like some girls up on friendster who is interested in getting to know him. For me, it's like all my female friends are close friends aka no chance of getting into a relationship. Although I've gotten over Bernice, but still, when I look at my circle of female friends, it seems that all are no chance of getting into a relationship with any of them.

Though I know that when fate decrees when I'll have a relationship, I'll sometimes fall into this type of depression when I'm alone. Haiz... perhaps... I'm destined not to have one at all... Sighz...

Okok.. enough of bitching.. gotta snap back to reality and do my catching up of tutorials and lectures already. I've missed quite a number of lectures...