Bad PR

I guess my PR skills sucks big time... judging from the recent events. Friends who were close to me are kinda no longer close. Even someone whom I spent some time with left me. Not particularly that I rejoice or feel sad over, but at least every night I do not have irritating music blasting whilst I'm trying to sleep. Maybe in the first place I'm an introvert, just like what my mentor commented. Perhaps all this while I'm trying to put up a shield around me to fight off loneliness. But in the end I saw through myself. I ain't what I appear to be.

Even so, I don't really care about who's reading this. It is just too tiring to guess and second guess people's thoughts and feelings. These stuff used to bother me till I nearly broke down. People would tell me to think for other people. But isn't such stuff supposed to be 2 way or is it the case where my vocabulary should not have the word 'me' or 'I' but only 'them' or 'they' or 'him' or 'her'? Jesus, I can't handle when such shit stuff crops up. Oh well. Enough of whining. It's high time to hit the books.


When you experienced loneliness for too long a time
You will forget
What is it to be treasured and loved.