Happy New Year!!!

I Decide(The Princess Diaries OST)

Don't think that you can tell me what to think
I'm the one who knows what's good for me
And I'm stating my independence
Gonna take the road I'm gonna take
And I'm gonna make my own mistakes
It's my life

(Chorus)
I decide
I decide how I live
I decide who I love
The choice is mine
And no one gets to make my mind up
I decide
I decide where I go
What I need, who I know
I'm the one who's running my life
I decide
I decide

Don't think you're ever going to hold me down
Couldn't do it then, can't do it now
I'm kicking down all the fences
Gonna do it all and do too much
And if I mess the whole thing up, it's my ride

(Chorus)

I'm taking my own chances
I'm finding my own answers
Come lonely and soaring to me (still iffy about this line)
And that's the way it's gonna be

(Chorus)

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Hope that everyone had a great New Year ushering... well... for me... I can use 2 words to describe it. Fucked up. I simply hate it man. A bad start of the new year. Very bad. Dust that was supposedly settled are stirred up again. How the hell am I going to face it again? I thought I had the courage to start things afresh and do the things that I wanna do. But it simply pisses me off that things are not how they appeared to be. And that brings me back to the old question. How am I gonna give my heart to a girl if I would be facing such problems again? Do I have the determination to leave completely or I would have to be a bastard and leave her? I'm no playboy. I give my heart wholly into a relationship and I can't leave the love that I had with her and look for another one. I love the person for myself and not for other people. Which means that so long as the approval is not there, do I have to keep looking for one until the green light is there? Come on. I'm no longer a kid and stop using threats on me. Come on. It doesn't work on me anymore. If you really mean it, then tell me straight in the face. I'll get the hell out of your life. It's not as if I can't live without you. I'm not handicapped or retarded. I don't believe that in this world there is no job for me.


Pissed. Very pissed.
Guess chocs are my only faithful 'girlfriend'
I simply hate this lifestyle man... haiz