Fucked up

I feel so fucked up now. Is it the case where whatever fuckshit that I say or do can have another hidden agenda? OK, I don't fucking care if I hurt anyone right now. Let me repeat myself again. I AM NO FUCKING PUSHOVER!!! People can tell me to get to some place for work and yet nothing is done. I am not what I appear to be. If it is destined that all my friends are to leave me by this semester, then so be it. I don't give a fucking damn care now. Words are twisted and distorted and I'm really tired of explaining myself again and again. Believe in whatever fuckshit that you want to believe in.Let me repeat again. I don't fucking care.