*Muted*

Ok... this post came in really late, cos' I intended to put it up this morning at around 5am, but was too tired.

Anyway watched the movie 'The Pianist' and it was way good. This movie makes me think about life and things that we take for granted. For example, in the show, the Nazis made the Jews walk in the gutters instead of the pavement on the streets. I can't imagine something bad happens here and some races that the invader hates are forced to do such things as well. All human dignity have been stripped away from them and they literally have to live like dogs at the mercy of the Germans.

Which makes me feel like bringing up some points... as the day draws closer, somehow or rather, I'm getting more and more depressed. I shouldn't have any reason to feel depresesd or what-nots, but the thing is... I do wanna hope that things will work out.. I don't wanna feel used or manipulated in the end... yes, I appreciate what is being done for me, but still... geez... the expectation of failure is there. Should I totally give it up or cash in on a very faint glimmer of hope that things will work out? Maybe yes, maybe no. At the end of it, I'm still me...


As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man