Scary

After rotting in hall for 3 straight days with Conqueronline as my only target, I'm proud to say that my archer's finally gotten 3 levels stronger. Phew. Took me damn long for that. From a pathetic level 93 archer to a level 96 archer today. Haha. Had to endure body aches and what nots..

And what this post deserves this title was my relevation of the previous posts. I sound so *toot* despondent over BGRs!!! My God... is this the "me" that logged in these past few days to blog? Perhaps is that particular day that made me think of her... though I've gotten over her, no?

Like one of my friends questioned me: Is it really that "fantastic" to be in a relationship before? Perhaps so, cos' at least there's someone close to you who is there sharing your problems. What about same-sex friends? Hmmm... it'll be quite wrong for 2 guys to hug each other... 2 girls still not that bad... so yeah... get the point? Bleah. The irrational and over-emotional Chuanyan had completely overwritten the usually rational Julian. Maybe that's because I've managed to cool down my head cos' I've much less of THAT? Perhaps so. My friend was like, whoa.. what made you do that? Eh... no vices here, more on my appearance.. And I realised that I've used too many "perhaps" and "maybe" in this entry. Geez.. I just can't make things out. What a wishy-washy person I am..

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The First Cut Is The Deepest by Sheryl Crow

I would have given you all of my heart
but there's someone who's torn it apart
and she's taking almost all that I've got
but if you want, I'll try to love again
baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
'cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

I still want you by my side
just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
cause I'm sure gonna give you a try
and if you want, I'll try to love again
but baby, I'll try to love again, but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

'Cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest