Fun

Day 2 of CNY is slightly more fun than day 1. Went to visit my relatives, and the joke of the day was that some elders whom I didn't know I had apparently thought that my sister and I were a couple... geez... I mean, that's real far fetched... though once again I heard the comment that I resembled my grandfather, whom I didn't have the chance to get to love. But later I went to pay my grandmother a visit and she looks clearly excited to see me. Hah. I guess all my family members are jealous the way she treats me. Too bad :p

Later went to one of my friend's house and watched real corny shows such as Euro Tour and Deuce Bigalow - European Gigolo as well as horror movies such as Kill Bill. Though Kill Bill looks disgustingly morbid at first, I soon convulsed with unstoppable laughter at the number of fountains of spurting blood. I mean, the sheer number of scenes really plays down the horror of the that and the sting's no longer there.

However, as I headed back home via train, I was greeted by that familiar scent again... lol.. yet I wouldn't exactly say that I miss the person wearing that per se, but I would marvel at how I chose things to turn out the way it is right now. Like I said before, this is unfair to her. But I guess there's no such thing as 'fairness' existing at all in the first place. Things that are so common and innocent in the past, such as sitting and laughing heartiy together, seem to be so far fetched right now. Perhaps I just can't pluck up enough courage to do so. After all, I'm the initiator of all the events right now. I don't think I'm thick-skinned enough to ask for 'forgiveness' when I'm the one who kinda gave her a figurative slap in the first place. And the fault doesn't lie in her. Hrummph. There's simply too many stuff weighing on my mind now. Lucky that most are about schoolwork. I don't dare to imagine what will happen if what happened to my close friend happened onto me. I think I'll just go bang my head on the wall. Might as well. I get to use up 400 calories by doing that. Heh.


Glad that my friend's seeing more clearly now
Though I know that
It's easy to love someone
But it's tough forgetting the person whom you love

Happy Lunar New Year!!!

First of all, the year of the Dog has arrived. And I'm one year older, theoretically. I guess it's high time to mature and not behave disgustingly childish anymore. Heh. Earlier yesterday I was still in hall doing my long-desired spring cleaning and seriously I swear that the room's super dirty. After cleaning, my room really feels much more comfortable. After that went back home for reunion dinner, and that was a great feeling, having dinner with my whole family around.

Then I received a phone call, asking me whether I'm game for countdown at Chinatown. I went down and the atmosphere's real fun, especially with the firecrackers. The sting of gunpowder assailing my nostrils and the loud cracking really reminds me of the army days, during range practice. Haha. Also went to shop for goodies, but the crowd's really packed. Luckily I managed to grab some cheap stuff off from the vendors. And oh yes. I was served the letter to report back to camp to be charged for AWOL-ing IPPT. Although I'm certainly sure that I won't get punished, but the thought of taking the MRT from one end of the island to the other really pisses me off. Geez. Ok. Less words, some photos from the CNY countdown.



The night scene of Chinatown.



The firecrackers hanging, waiting to be lighted.

The following pictures are those of the fireworks. Pardon for the unprofessional shots... -.O















This is what I call 'mountain sea mountain people'



The shop selling CNY decorations



The performance after the countdown... featuring some girls shaking their butts



Last but not least... my war spoils



That's it. I really enjoyed myself then, except for the squeeze. It feels good to be out on the streets that late, considering that I didn't have much chances during the hols. Haha. Gotta start my engine again after the festive season. ^^


Thanks for making my day
Though I made you wait for some time... sorry.. ^.^

Great night

I guess today's my best day of all. Not particularly because of anybody, but more of that my sore leg seems to be able to withstand a slightly higher strain due to more complex stances. I don't think I can do the stance that cost my injury, but it seems that I can start jumping around and I don't get the super sore feeling. Heh. I guess it's true, time heal all wounds, figuratively and literally. Had another long chat, and she really opened my eyes to new boundaries that I did not see before. Oh well. I'm long past the 'self-pity' age. I'm living for myself and I do things as I deem fit. Gotta prepare for tomorrow's lab. Haiz.... troublesome lab..


Quoted:
"My expectation is to be invisible
and I'm good at it."

Trying feebly to do so now.

Haiz...

This is ridiculous. It took me more than 30 mins just to get to this page. It seems that the school network IS really getting from bad to worse. Anyway, I feel quite satisfied today. Managed to do some tutorials and clarified my doubts. And my 206. Now I wonder whether those technicians suffer from aching fingers. THE WIRE WRAPPING SUCKS BIG TIME!!! Perhaps is my obsession to make wires neat. As a result I had to re-wire when I realise that the length wasn't up to standard. I guess that accounts for my sore index finger. Hopefully the board won't give me any problems, unlike my unlucky friend... who did his wiring for 5 hours straight only to realise that something's wrong with the board. Oh well. Signing off here. Tomorrow's another long day.


Consistence and persistence is the key.
Apparently I wasn't wise enough to comprehend it.
Oh well. This is my destiny.

世界最远的距离

世界最远的距离
不是生与死的距离
而是我站在你的面前
你却不知道我爱你


世界最远的距离
不是我站在你的面前
你却不知道我爱你
而是爱到痴迷
却不能说我爱你


世界最远的距离
不是我不能说我爱你
而是想你痛彻心脾
却只能深埋心底


世界最远的距离
不是我不能说我想你
而是彼此相爱
却不能够在一起


世界最远的距离
不是彼此相爱
却不能在一起
而是明明无法抵挡这一股气息
却还得装作毫不在意


世界最远的距离，
不是明明无法抵挡这一股气息
却还得装作毫不在意
而是用一颗冷漠的心
在你和爱你的人之间
掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠


世界最远的距离
不是树与树的距离
而是同根生长的树枝
却无法在风中相依


世界最远的距离
不是树枝无法相依
而是相互了望的星星
却没有交汇的轨迹


世界最远的距离
不是星星之间的轨迹
而是纵然轨迹交汇
却在转瞬间无处寻觅


世界最远的距离
不是瞬间便无处寻觅
而是尚未相遇
便注定无法相聚


世界最远的距离
是鱼与飞鸟的距离
一个在天
一个却深潜海底

Missing

It seems that part of me is missing someone, not say terribly, but quite badly... cos' she used to be a part of my life (I do hope it's not an insult to her), but it's been a long time since we've got together to just catch up. Oh well.. certainly times have changed...

And glad that I went to the Wushu training last Wednesday. Training's fun, albeit the 2 girls are not there... but there are some stances I still cannot do. Oh well, more haste, less speed. I guess I've come to this understanding with myself, with my condition. Though it's "heartbreaking" that I can't do those stances, but at least I'm still alive and I'm not amputated. hur hur. Glad that I'm not treated like a pest or a crybaby who tell my instructors that I'm fine and behind them I cry out that my leg hurts like hell. I guess that's about it. Just wanna sort out my life and everything before I contemplate about my future, my personal relationships and life. Heh.

细水长流

年少时候谁没有梦
无意之中你将心愿透露
就在你生日的时候我将小小口琴送
最难忘记你的笑容

(Chorus)
友情的细水慢慢流流进了你我的心中
曾在球场边为你欢呼你跌伤我背负
夜里流星飞渡想象着他日的路途
晚风听着我们壮志无数

年少时候谁没有愁
满腔愤慨唯有你能听得懂
每当我失意的时候你将那首歌吹奏
琴声悠悠解我情愁

(Chorus)

多年以后又再相逢
我们都有了疲倦的笑容
问一声我的朋友何时再为我吹奏
是否依旧是否依旧

(Chorus)

多年以后又再相逢
我们都有了疲倦的笑容
问一声我的朋友何时再为我吹奏
是否依旧是否依旧
人生的际遇千百种但有知心长相重
人愿长久水愿长流年少时候

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Do I have the fortune to enjoy this?
*wonder wonder*

Bad PR

I guess my PR skills sucks big time... judging from the recent events. Friends who were close to me are kinda no longer close. Even someone whom I spent some time with left me. Not particularly that I rejoice or feel sad over, but at least every night I do not have irritating music blasting whilst I'm trying to sleep. Maybe in the first place I'm an introvert, just like what my mentor commented. Perhaps all this while I'm trying to put up a shield around me to fight off loneliness. But in the end I saw through myself. I ain't what I appear to be.

Even so, I don't really care about who's reading this. It is just too tiring to guess and second guess people's thoughts and feelings. These stuff used to bother me till I nearly broke down. People would tell me to think for other people. But isn't such stuff supposed to be 2 way or is it the case where my vocabulary should not have the word 'me' or 'I' but only 'them' or 'they' or 'him' or 'her'? Jesus, I can't handle when such shit stuff crops up. Oh well. Enough of whining. It's high time to hit the books.


When you experienced loneliness for too long a time
You will forget
What is it to be treasured and loved.

Phew

Managed to get into the semis, though it isn't really that easy to do so. We almost lost a crucial match, but luckily in the end the other chap made a super big blunder that caused his downfall. And yet another piece of good news. If we manage to get into the finals, not only we are guaranteed a medal, but we will also be kinda 'made' the best recreational team for Hall 7. Cos' as tons of people know, 7 is a sports hall and for the past years only scrabble and boggle teams manage to get into the finals. So yeah, thanks to our captain, we managed to have the shot into finals. Well. Enough of fantasising. Better rest well for tomorrow's lecture and then give all my best when playing against Hall 3 tomorrow. ^_^

Wish me luck.


I guess such games helped me lift my spirits
Oh well... whatever. It takes two to tango.

Lucky

Kinda just came back from IHR, and managed a personal record of 1 win and 2 draws. Though the win was downright lucky, cos' given that situation, it's a sure lose setup. But that chap ran out of time, and luck, so I won. Hehe. For my 1st draw, I was lucky enough that my opponent made some careless mistakes and as a result I could fight for a draw. The 3rd match is a clear cut draw. Perhaps I could see how the game will go and since I have no opportunity to win, I might as well draw. Phew. Oh well. Today's day 1. 2 more days to go. And with that, more heart stopping matches to go. And yeah. If we grasp all the wins tomorrow, then Hall 7's gonna get into the semis. ^^


I used to get confused by her words
But now
I think I could understand them a bit better.

Wet Weather

I guess the monsoon rains met with a red light at the crossroads of the weather road. This rain is supposed to arrive in December but yet it's been raining very heavily for the past 3 days and there's no chance for clothes to get sunshined properly. My God, how on earth then are the clothes supposed to dry? Iron them? Or put them under the ceiling fan? Heh. Anyway I'll soon be experiencing what is truly called a 'single deluxe'. Yeah. He's shifting. Might as well. Oddly enough, the war seems to be longer than the Iraq war. Geez. And to say that he's disappointed in me. Mind you, it takes two to tango. Whatever. The second week's gonna end in a couple of days' time. Thanks to my friend, I have exactly 96 days to exams right now. Bah. I'm gonna be a super duper nerd for this sem, and the ones following it. I can only pray to Him that I can have the strength to carry me through this year. Never in my life do I feel so dependent on Him before.


世界最远的距离
不是生与死的距离
而是我站在你的面前
你却不知道我爱你

Late night out

Had dinner at Fish&Co with my ex-platoon mates, and it had been a long time since we've gotten together to catch up with each other. Well seems that more and more of my friends have gotten hitched.. I mean attached, as well as some whom patched up with their ex. Good for them. I guess what one of my friends said hit the target. For the next 2.5 years my only faithful 'girlfriend' will be my reference books, who will never fail to disappoint me if I spend enough quality time with 'her'. Sounds damn pathetic. Heh. I don't have a choice... considering that I'm not as smart as someone who's studies are good and gotten himself a decent girlfriend or someone else who's studies are above average and getting interested in some girl in some other universities. Whatever. Things are not good at the moment. There's just too many factors to consider and threats to risk. Unless I can get myself proper, if not I'll just stay around, single and being an ass-hole.

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Stick Wit U by The Pussycat Dolls

Ohhh.. Oh Oh..

I don't wanna go another day..
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind.
Seems as like everybody is breaking up
and throwing their love away..
But I know I got a good thing right here,
That's why I say.. (Hey..)

(Chorus)
Nobody gonna love me better, I'm gon' stick wit u forever.
Nobody gonna take me higher, I'm gon' stick wit u..
You know how to appreciate me, I'm gon' stick wit u, my baby!
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I'mma stick wit u.

I don't wanna go another day..
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind.
See the way we ride, in our private lives,
Ain't nobody gettin' in between!
I want you to know that, your the only one for me!

(Chorus)

And now, ain't nothing else I can need..
And now, I'm singing.. 'cause your so, so into me!
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you, baby you're with me!

So don't cha worry about,
people hanging around,
they ain't bring us down!
I know you, and you know me..
and that's all that counts
So don't cha worry about,
people hanging around,
they ain't bring us down!
I know you, and you know me..
and that's why, that's why I say..

(Chorus)*2
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Though their other songs sounds bimbotic
But this song is one of my favourites
Heh... how I wish...

If I were to have...

I was asked this question a couple of days back... and it left me pondering for some time. Well.. I don't ask for money or materialistic stuff... and after some time, I came with these 3 technologies

a)A time machine. I would want to have one, so that I could give any party involved a second chance of not doing something wrong or have far-reaching consequences. I won't meddle with history directly, but more of like dropping hints here and there so that the wrong choices would not be made.

b)Glasses that can see a person's thoughts. I admit that at times, I'm crass. Being able to see what the other person is thinking enables me to know how to respond to a person and not screwing things up further by saying the wrong thing.

c)A teleporter that can instantly teleport me to anywhere that I've been to. Transportation is like getting more and more expensive by the day and with this, getting from point to point is made much much easier.

Well... I guess I may find myself naive when I read this entry a few months later, but that's what I feel right now. Just like the time where I started having feelings for Bern and the time where I deleted my entry for the first time when I blogged beacuse of some things that I find it too inappropriate to be made known. After all, the human brain is a mysterious piece of shit. Cos' if the brain keeps telling one that he likes another girl where there's nothing going on, chances are that that chap will fall for her. Which can be quite dangerous at times. I've seen cases where 2 friends whom went for the training trip became total strangers after that, cos' that guy fell for a girl whom he's not supposed to. Oh well. Back to my books in the meantime. I don't wanna screw up my studies during this semester as well.


午夜梦回时莫名的彷徨
暗自怀念幸福模样
I think I experienced that last night... haiz...

1st day of school

The much awaited day has finally arrived. heh. Though I kinda overslept for my 8.30am lecture, but luckily didn't miss much. And as usual, the sale of lecture notes is like... horrendous? Bah. Managed to get hold of those more important ones.

And 204. He's much toned down now. Not like last semester, that fiery and irritating, if I may say. Spent another 4 hours chilling out in KTV with a bunch of monkeys singing and prancing around. Haha. Reached back 7 at 8.30pm for my Chinese chess training and ended at 11pm. Geez. Though luckily I didn't make really silly mistakes anymore. Phew. And as I'm thinking through what happened today, I think I'm unfair to her. Cos she had to receive treatement that she didn't deserve to. But oh well. Though it's a tad bit too late, but still, better be late than never. Heh. So... I really look forward to the changes in this semester... Whatever.



This is the 'all guys' photo courtesy from Bingjin ^^



The rose among the bunch of monkeys... hur hur



Paul, Me and Ryan



Last but not least... our group photo. As you can see, Junqin's not in the picture cos' he needed to "fall-in-and-report-strength" LOL

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Miracles Happen (When You Believe) from The Princess Diaries OST
Miracles happen, miracles happen
You showed me faith is not blind
I don't need wings to help me fly
Miracles happen, miracles happen

I can't imagine living my life without you now
Not ever having you around
We found our way out
(on you I can depend)
Don't have to look back to realize how far we've come
There are million reasons
I'm lookin up
I don't want this to end

Nothin
Nothin should ever bring you down
Knowing what goes around will come around

(Chorus)
You showed me faith is not blind
I don't need wings to help me fly
Miracles happen, once in a while
When you believe
(miracles happen)
You showed me dreams come to light
That takin a chance on us was right
All things will come with a little time
When You believe

There is no question we found the missing pieces
Our picture is complete
It's fallen into place
(it's fallen into place)
This is out moment, you and I are looking up
Someone is watching over us
Keeping me close
Closer to you everyday

Nowhere
Nowhere on earth i'd rather be
No one can take this away from you and me
(Chorus)

When you believe
The soul is a shining light
When you believe
The heart has the will to fight
You can do anything, don't be afraid
We're gonna find our way

Happy New Year!!!

I Decide(The Princess Diaries OST)

Don't think that you can tell me what to think
I'm the one who knows what's good for me
And I'm stating my independence
Gonna take the road I'm gonna take
And I'm gonna make my own mistakes
It's my life

(Chorus)
I decide
I decide how I live
I decide who I love
The choice is mine
And no one gets to make my mind up
I decide
I decide where I go
What I need, who I know
I'm the one who's running my life
I decide
I decide

Don't think you're ever going to hold me down
Couldn't do it then, can't do it now
I'm kicking down all the fences
Gonna do it all and do too much
And if I mess the whole thing up, it's my ride

(Chorus)

I'm taking my own chances
I'm finding my own answers
Come lonely and soaring to me (still iffy about this line)
And that's the way it's gonna be

(Chorus)

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Hope that everyone had a great New Year ushering... well... for me... I can use 2 words to describe it. Fucked up. I simply hate it man. A bad start of the new year. Very bad. Dust that was supposedly settled are stirred up again. How the hell am I going to face it again? I thought I had the courage to start things afresh and do the things that I wanna do. But it simply pisses me off that things are not how they appeared to be. And that brings me back to the old question. How am I gonna give my heart to a girl if I would be facing such problems again? Do I have the determination to leave completely or I would have to be a bastard and leave her? I'm no playboy. I give my heart wholly into a relationship and I can't leave the love that I had with her and look for another one. I love the person for myself and not for other people. Which means that so long as the approval is not there, do I have to keep looking for one until the green light is there? Come on. I'm no longer a kid and stop using threats on me. Come on. It doesn't work on me anymore. If you really mean it, then tell me straight in the face. I'll get the hell out of your life. It's not as if I can't live without you. I'm not handicapped or retarded. I don't believe that in this world there is no job for me.


Pissed. Very pissed.
Guess chocs are my only faithful 'girlfriend'
I simply hate this lifestyle man... haiz