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On my way home, my close friend was asking me, "Hey, seriously speaking, are you like interested in those 2 girls? Cos' is like sometimes you treat one very good, then sometimes you treat the other one very good as well.."

Thanks for the concern dude, but there's nothing going on. I guess what she said is true, we are too close to be in a relationship, be it who she's referring to.

Matters of the heart isn't that simple to begin with. Ok, assuming if I really have feelings to any of them, it's useless. This is not the case of like, ya, I like you, so just be my girlfriend or something like that. The other party must also reciprocrate the feelings. It doesn't help if it's one sided thingy. I've encountered that situation recently, not on me though, where things became very sticky.

And also, I know where I stand.. as in.. be it me being pessimistic or whatever.. good things will never take place on me.. But the thing is, I have my family, I have close friends and I do not need to worry about daily necessities everyday. I should be thankful to God and appreciate all these blessings. I don't wanna lose all these and then regret later.

In the meantime... I'll just concentrate on my studies... and yeah.. loads and loads of reference books and notes shall be my 'girlfriends' in the 2.5 years to come... a bit pathetic... but oh well.. that's my lot.. unless some girl is willing to accept someone who is so much inferior to her... ahahz... oh well.. back to my 'girlfriends'...